"I'm a monstrous creature with the audacity to compete with G-d (affectionate)."

I am participating in the Panfandom Hanukkah Bingo this year in honor of our very own Blair Sandburg, and the admin aimmyarrowshigh very sweetly made me a custom card! I'm posting it here as a reference for when I upload my fics to AO3. Chag sameach; mir veln zey iberlebn.

So, the time has arrived-- Paramount is copyright striking Sentinel episodes across YouTube. From what I can tell, there's no longer a single complete playlist that can be made with the videos currently available from any user. Looks like it started this morning/late last night, based on when I was last able to access certain episodes.

Thankfully, I downloaded the best quality copy of all the episodes while they were still available, so I do have them on my hard drive. If anyone has any no-cost hosting suggestions that aren't YouTube right now that might allow for these to stay up for streaming, please let me know and I'd be happy to upload them there.

Otherwise-- I'm going to wait for a bit until the furor hopefully dies down and get these reuploaded (probably under its own email address/account in case it gets struck again) in the hopes that it can fly under the radar. In the meantime, if you need an episode and can't find it anywhere, let me know and I'd be happy to send you a link through email or DM so you can download it yourself/have your own copy. <3

As promised... ;)

( tumblr text memes: 2 variety 2 pack )

Hello friends!

To keep me honest and because a decent amount of these I either 1) have promised at least one person I would work on them or 2) have due dates, I want to go ahead and make a list of what's in the works and how close we are to completion.

NEW:

1. Darklight, recorded from streaming and put into digital form (for RB and that gorgeous leather jacket, of course). Hit me up if you want a copy-- I've not uploaded it to YouTube because I'm afraid of getting a copyright strike, but I'm happy to email the link out to people.

NOW:

1. The Sentinel soundtrack upload to YouTube. I'm hoping this will fly under the radar since it's so niche. Looking to do this within the next week or so-- I haven't uploaded anything to the site in... wow, 15 years? Plus I am aiming for timestamps in the description as well, so I'm gonna have to take some time to finagle it.

2. TS meme posts. I have sooo many more images that have already been uploaded; they just need to be sorted. Hoping to post a new entry this week.

3. TS transcript compiling. Mostly done. However, I need to fix the links to IMDb, because all of them are broken. There's at least... what, 10? For each episode, times 65 episodes. So about 650 at least broken links that I can't fix in batches. ;____; (Uh, as a side note, if anyone uses Scrivener and has figured out how to update links in batches...)

SOON:

1. intoabar challenge, 500 words minimum, due by June 18. I ended up with "Blair Sandburg walks into a bar and meets G'Kar from Babylon 5" and y'all... this is about one of the best options I could have ended up with. I have ideas already.

2. The ftm!Blair smut fic I've only been talking about for at least 2-3 months. Otherwise known as: Blair gets accidentally high and horny on main and Jim helps him out. Believe it or not-- established relationship!! (You can teach an old dog new tricks!)

3. One moment from every TS episode fanvid. I think I only have maybe 10 episodes to go!

LATER:

1. Protector fanvid. I love this song. This vid is going to be fantastic, just because it's all the hurt/comfort goodness of our boys, from both their perspectives.

2. The RB cut of Hostel II. Look, no one asked for this, but I want to make it anyway. Some of the parts he's in are just as graphic as the rest of the film, but seeing him all rough and cursing every other word is just. *error 404*

3. GIF making attempt, maybe. I did say that I liked RB in Darklight, didn't I? There's a specific scene that I want to try to clip involving him shoving a knife into his boot...

Hello, dear Reader!

Now that you’ve hopefully read the fic (And Cry Like “L’Chaim”; Hallelujah), behind the cut you’ll find my thoughts about the-making-of. All tags for the fic are fair game to be discussed. Please note that I am talking about my own experiences and my own research-- I don’t claim to be an expert or the one true arbiter of religion/spirituality. (And not one of our beloved show, either.) This meta also assumes that you've seen pretty much all TS episodes. If there's anything I've missed you'd like to ask about, please feel free.

Without further ado...

(Relevant tags reminder: suicidiality, Character in peril, Mental Breakdown, Whump, Angst with a Hopeful Ending, Soul Bond, Spirit walk, Grief/Mourning, Shaman!Blair, Jewish!Blair, Religious Imagery & Symbolism, Episode: s04e01 Sentinel Too Part 2, Episode: s04e08 The Sentinel by Blair Sandburg)

( Or, a meta on “The Sentinel” canon, Judaism, grief, and how sometimes we don’t write the story we want, but the story we need. )

I've always wanted to make one of these edits. Image and content spoilers for the series finale.

( So I can't get down on one knee. You know this is still a proposal, right? )